10:42 a.m. - 2007-03-28
The Final Four
I have finally (touch wood), broken it off with Mandi. Or more precisely pissed her off enough that she has stopped emailing and calling me. This is the one I have never met, but who served as a catalyst for me leaving Flor. I know, gotta love those Internet romances.
I have changed phone numbers, IM'd all my fuck buddies and told them I won't be back and thanks for the fun. I have deleted some ids, set ridiculously long passwords that I will never remember on others in an attempt to close out that area of my life for good. I don't want to be part of some huge fuck tree anymore. However many condoms I wear I will still be worried about getting something unpleasant from someone who may have made an unfortunate choice somewhere along the line.
That leaves me with only four girls to worry about:
- Flor. After 10 years, I still love her, I'm just not sure I can fit my life back into the box. She called me last night just as I was about to call her. We talked for a while but she sounded wierd. Like more business like and less - loving than she was last Friday.
- Sabrina (Son's mom). A tricky one this. I can tolerate her for about two days, then she is too much like hard work. But we do great in bed together.
- Rosie. She is an enigma. She keeps trying to match me up with another girl, then gets territorial when I talk to her. I really like Rosie. We may never get physical. Or if we do it won't be for a while. She is the reason I spend so much time at the gym I think. She is incredibly hot, and has a beautiful sharp mind, and is just crazy enough to be annoying and/or adorable as needed. I can hang out with her and talk about anything and just feel good.
- Dora. The one Rosie keeps trying to set me up with. I have had some long conversations with Dora about the meaning of life. So far I have managed to avoid getting too close, although she makes no secret of her interests in that area. Dora is my backup in case things with Rosie don't work out.
But none of this can happen if Flor doesn't get a job soon, which is why I am avoiding committing to anyone and avoiding getting any strange. If Flor doesn't get a job I will need to move back in with her, because I can't afford to keep both places going on my own.
So I wait and see what she does, before I can decide what I should do...
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